Saying goodbye to a career and embracing the unknown can be difficult. Tell me how tough this one is. For the past 7 seven or eight years, I’ve been writing about electric vehicles, and to a certain extent, alternative energy. I noticed I was getting paid less, even though my popularity rose. This last new moon made me finally realize, it was time to let go and embrace the unknown.
Let go, embrace the unknown
This new moon is about moving towards more clarity and organization, as well as a renewed energy. These themes should help us get back to the tasks we put on hold. I now I have. I’m using this time to bring to light clarity around this particular ending and this unknown new beginning.
It’s not always easy identifying what is ending, and even less what needs to end. It can take months for me. I drag myself through successive stages of frustration, pumped up energy, let downs and a myriad of ups and downs that remind me of Einstein’s definition of madness: to try the same same over and over expecting different results.
End of a career, embrace the unknown
I started new mantras on an appealing Hindu Goddess, Kali. Kali is fearsome, but she is fair and removes unwanted negative ego traits in a merciless way. It’s a ritual that helps embrace this ending and the new beginning. I try to remind myself that when something ends, something new to begin.
Embrace the unknown, but what is ending?
When I try to identify what is ending, it’s seems clear. My career as an electric vehicle (EV) journalist is coming to an end. I get paid less now than I did when I wasn’t as popular. I can blame a few tings. A lot of mainstream automotive journalists are now writing about EVs. They have published on big sites and magazines, eclipsing us independent writers. They also get paid, and most of us don’t. It’s a labor of love. The fact that some of the comments we independents get are nasty from people who hide in anonymity, doesn’t help. None the less, EVs are here to stay, and I feel I played my part.
Mitsubishi Solar hasn’t answered my emails, nor am I getting feedback from my other alternative energy writing endeavor. I’m starting to see this as a sign to move on.
That’s a tougher one to identify. Beginnings are tough to figure out because I don’t stop and linger. I’d rather jump in and embrace the new. After a few decades of doing this, I realize I’ve neglected an important aspect — closure. I’m giving myself closure time. I want to see how it feels to abandon writing at this stage of my career and move away with as little ego as possible. Hopefully, by doing this, I’ll be able to appreciate why is knocking on my door. Using the new moon period is a great way to establish a transition from this ending to the new beginning. This particular New Moon is important because it supports clarity and organization.
One thing is certain. I still haven’t incorporated spirituality and the socio-human theme in my life. I want this to come to the forefront now.